Confession of a Broken Heart

aku x tau kenapa air mata x stop2 mengalir dr td.....
hanyer Allah jer yg tau mcm mana pecah remuk hati aku hari ni...
ape dosa aku sampai smua benda ni jadik kat aku?
aku memang kelu... x termampu nak ckp even a word...

kenapa jadik mcm ni...
aku x caye bnda ni akan jadik kat aku...
menangis sepanjang jalan,
rase mcm nak meraung sampai satu One Utama dgr....
everybody was looking at me when my eyes were crying...
even a guy asked me "are you ok?"

is this the end?
aku x tau mcm mane esk pagi nak bgun?
bile aku tau dia dh xde dlm hidup aku?
pergi sekolah n face all the sadness alone?
dgn mata yg bengkak sure x dpt hide...

Stop flowing ouh my tears!
it hurts... i know..
it cuts me real deep...
kenapa hati manusia cepat berubah?
kenapa dia dulu lain sekarang lain?
dia x mcm mana aku kenal... dia lain sgt hari ni
lgi buat aku menangis x henti2...
kenapa dia sanggup buat aku mcm tu?

dia x tau mcm mane dia mean a lot to me...
aku mesti rindu nak dgr suare dia petang2 mase on the way dia nak balik keje,
aku mesti rindu dengar dia menguap sambil drive on the phone
aku mesti rindu nak dengar lawak dia,
aku mesti rindu nak YM ngan dia biler dia tension wat keje,
aku mesti rindu nak Skype dia,
aku mesti rindu nak web cam dia...

dia wat aku sebak.. sebak sangat,
sampai aku x tercakap masa jumpa dia tadi.
mata aku merah,
aku tau.
aku x nak menangis depan dia,
aku tahan. tapi bile aku pandang dia lagi buat aku sebak.

aku rase sekarang ni
aku macam bernafas dlm lumpur.
aku x tau mcm mane..
aku sakit
x de sape faham.
menangis je yang aku mampu buat...

tapi sampai bile aku nak nangis?
dia x tau dh berapa kali aku pendam,
dia x tau yg suare dia mampu buat aku happy.

aku x bole terima bile dia kate
'kita jadik kawan'
rase mcm dunia terhenti,
jantung aku pecah.
how could the words came out frm his mouth?
dia x sayang aku mcm mana aku sayang dia?

aku nak sgt dia tau
yg aku nak hold dia kuat2,
nangis kat dia,
bisik kat telinga dia how much i love him
how much I need him in my life...
tapi aku bodoh,
aku lupa dia bukan milik aku...
kenapa aku bodoh sampai lupa benda tu?
mungkin sebab aku terkabur,
sebab aku cinta dia..
sebab aku terlalu cinta dia....

kisah kau dan aku,
aku sayang dia,
KZR.


Officially I Temperory Stop blogging!
dont ask me why.



-fieyra zachariah-

I Saved Those Words In My Heart That I Left Unspoken

She dropped the (fake) smile,
As tears ran down her cheeks
She whispered to herself,
"My Bitter Heart is getting fragile"

I pray to God and cry my tears
-fieyra zach-

Which Dictionary You're Using?

Menurut Kamus Dewan Bahasa Edisi keempat, (the red hardcover dictionary),
Ronggeng which derived frm Javanese language, means menari mengikut lagu (dengan irama gendang dan... etc etc..) *cant remember*

so as a SPM candidate, we are recommended to use those bombastic words in our daily life... so the story begin:

me: Amy tomorrow I wanna do ronggeng practice for prom nite
Amy: I cant go ronggeng practice.. I gotta go to MTD. why didnt you do it on Thursday?
me: I cant.. I got tuition...
Amy: Ala.... u dun need tonggeng la!
me: ??!!?

As the conclusion,
tuition + ronggeng = tonggeng

i laughed my ass off!!

this is wat happen in a class just now!
thanx amy! u taught me a new word!
:D

-fieyra zach-

When Your Stereo Starts to Dance, I'm Out!

hey why suddenly i feel
like i wanna slap my own face?
and cry so much!
why ni?
out of mood for blogging!
again & again!!

sorry im not in a mood of laughing!

Lets Follow the rhythm

This is what we call Sunday Morning Activity.. lol :D
all this picture was taken by myself. i jus dunno why I had an urge to snap those foods and upload it in my blog.... nampak sedap & memang sedap! hahah...
mama cooked by herself ok? no beli2!

-fieyra zach-

Photography Session of 2009

Today is a photography session of 2009 at school…
It was kinda cool at the beginning, but it wasn’t last till end..

I feel one kinda feeling after Kristina reminded me that tis will be the last year of photography session in our school life..
Ouh~ Kris, you really makes me wanna slap my face (for no reason)
We really got no idea what will happen to us for another 2 or 3 years…

Among all the piccas that we took, 5 SCIENCE 1 is the best la! especially the freestyle pose! With the blazers off and some in front pose! Fuh! Hahaha


you rock la Kristina a.k.a Phua Phua!


-fieyra zachariah-

Damn! Its Cancelled Again!

click for enlarge!

Kamal got injured!!
hahaha.. he's my new dance choreographer..
its ok Kamal, cepat2 sembuh and will do it next week ya?


-fieyra zachariah-

Shiha, read this

Shiha,
susah I nk ckp psl benda ni...
as u know, I dh berdepan ngan benda ni lama dr you...
cuma you lucky cz you ade I yg dh masak ngan perangai dia...
sebab tu dia x ramai kawan...
cuba tanyer dia,
dia ada sape kawan selain you dgn i?
berapa byk bestfriend dia ade?
sure dia x terjawab....

But I just dunno why im d only person who can tahan dgn
Perangai dia.. u witness it all kan ape yg dia buat kat i? you sendiri Nampak…
But why m I still with her? Jus coz of 1 reason, she’s my friend…
Shiha,its almost 5 years im with her…
Kalau kata tak marah, meluat, sure I tipu kan….
Tapi mcm u kate la, dia x la sejahat mana,
Buruk2 dia baik dia tu pun ade…. :D

But something I learnt in my life lately..
No matter what, I kene belajar terima perangai orang… baik ke, buruk ke,
Meluat ke, gedik ke… although dlm proses nak menerima perangai orang,
It hurts, it bleeds..memang susah I know… tapi,
Nak suro org faham kite, lagi la susah…
So the best solution, kite yg kene buat….
Bukan dgn dia jer I buat ni,
But to all… sape2 yg I rase I kene I faham la senang crite…

But I guess there’s no harm done pun if we express ketidakpuasan hati tu kan?
You know what I mean don’t you?
Hahahhahaa…
But dlm byk2 org you and me je kene mcm ni..
But its k..
I got you and you got me!
2 blogger girl
They wont know bout our secret!
Jeng.. jeng.. jeng..

-fieyra zach-

Mama, you're 50!! ;D

HAPPY 50thBITHDAY MAMA!!

she laughed when i wished her early in the morning just now..
maybe she didnt believe that she was already 50..
so do I.. mama, u're 50 now? mcm x caye jer....
anyhoo, nothing I should say more other than hoping you will always be happy,
cheerful, stay comel, and may Allah bless you!
you know that you mean a world to me...
no matter how nakal or watesoeva I am,
i will always love you!

*i know you will curi2 read my blog tho I said DON'T! :D*

happy birthday mama!!
-fieyra zach-

Doctor! Come and Save Me!

I duno what to blog about actually.. but its k..
Maybe I should start with my current health issue
Sounds boring..
-Yeah I know..
-You shut up!
I got headache, fever, flu,
-wat else?
But still so energetic pressing this keyboard..
So weird…
But imma’ superhero..
I manage to go to school…
-ouh, u’re great, Fieyra!
-well, I dun want that ‘mikibar’ looking for me again & again
Asking the same shit Q “mana surat?”
And luckily I came, coz I almost forgot that
I need to do oral test with Pentaksir frm somewhere planet tah..
With a blur-kinda-face,
Nasib baik ePPDa text was still in this spinning head
Fuh~
Anyhoo,
Amy said I got H1N1..
-ouh hell no!
Nah…. Im not.. its jus a normal flu ler…
Plus a lil’ headache….
So whats more……
Erm~
Shiha! I want my piccas!
Woot! Woot! :D

Dah la, pening kepala la… toddles!

-fieyra zach-

Am I Guilty?

I would totally put the blame neither to Celcom nor DiGi! Both of them are suck! Or TBR is the main suck! Urgh~ sama je ar… I’m sorry giler to Syasya.. idk that she did not receive my msg...

I feel damn guilty towards her.. dah la today she’s puasa…she waited for me from 4 to 5.30.. she tot I’ll come… I msg her 2 times.. one was using my no. (DiGi) and the other one using my bros no. (Celcom) telling her that I will not come to tuition… haiz~~ or TBR is the main issue? Coz mama and my sis keep on complaining bout the line here….. siot ar… it really makes me wanna curse…
and abang pulak when he knew that Syasya didn’t get my msg, he marah me.. its like im kedekut. He said im supposedly call instead of jus msg her…

how do I know…… If I know tis gonna be happened, I won’t do la!

Im dreadfully sorry Syasya.. Sumpah, I did msg you!

-fieyra zach-

Dear Sayang,

“I think I love you
I Already do
Feelings can grow but
They can go away too….

…If you want me so much
First I have to know
Are you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what's on my mind?
Or am I just for show?
You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl..”
-How to Touch a girl

Gloomy? Erm~ isn’t the best word to describe how I feel rite now..
Tah la…
Too much are still bottled up inside… I dun understand whats on ur mind seriously.. I dun understand… everything seems to be wrong… is it so hard to sacrifice a lil’ of ur time? It’s not that I dun understand you… but sometimes u barely know what I feel inside.. you can never be serious.. what you always think that im cool and can take it… or im not that important for you?

Im a simple type of person, I won’t say something that I dun mean it….

I wish you knew,
-fieyra zach-

When Karma Comes, You will know How it Feels

'Thanx'
Hunny (bukan nama sebenar)
for
insulting
me & saying what you like
before u ever
think bout my feeling..
and
'Congrats'
Sherry (bukan nama sebenar)
for being
such a
two faces
infront of me,
and
the other in front of Hunny!
That was so impressive..
I thought you could understand me…

im so numb,
-fieyra zach-

Good Riddance Insomnia!

Go away Mr. Insomnia!!

I wanna sleep!

I got class tomorrow!

I wanna sleep!

-fieyra zach-

.....

4 p.m - Charged my handphone and straight away put it on my side

4.30 a.m- Cleaned up whatevershit in my room, … Just to drift myself from thinking when you were gonna appear.

When clock turned to 5.00 p.m.- At tuition.. no answer from you

The clock stroke 5.45 p.m. –Still the same, again, the same news.

Now, 7 p.m. - No signs you will appear…

I waited for how many hours
FOR NOTHING…..
You have never failed to disappoint me… kan?

It’s just the same,
-fieyra zach-

Thanx Aima!

Thanx a lot Aima!!!
I jus received her present early in this morning. She passed it to Athirah to give it to me! I thought u dh lupa!
She bought me a chocolate with a small bday card pasted on it! So cuteeE! Thanx Hun!

And I got a new junior for tis month named Daiana Paha. She’s a sabahan gurl.. kinda talkative I could say… :D hahaha

And for biology class today, we entered a new chapter that is chapter 4, basically bout sex and reproduction. As what Pn Norizan said:
“for this chapter, no Practical! ONLY THEORY!” and “NO live specimen allowed!” hahahhaha.. u get what she said don’t you?

thanx!
-fieyra zach-

Holidays End! Ouh No~

Tick-tock-tick-tock
Hey, school holiday is almost end! Ya Allah I can’t believe it! Frequent phase “I did nothing other than wasting my time" yups… that’s true.. It happens every time….
Bila dh bkk sekolah, like usual, all the hustle bustle is totally beyond description. The hectic day begins!

And everybody will start asking, “eh, kau cuti buat ape?” “Wei, I spend my time watching tv 24/7” etc…etc… that time baru la, menyesal sini sana... same goes to tis gurl…. Haiz~~ and the most is, I’m gonna miss to stay awake in the middle of the nite till 5 with my lappy on my bed.. ouh~~~

You know, I love holidays so much.. and who doesn’t? Hish! School is so like hell! I want forever holidays! Can I? Can I?

And I hav to admit that I’m so aurghh~ with this Q “so mcm mane? Dh ready for SPM” eh, jgn la remind me.. I know la, although I haven’t yet making any preparation… and don’t put your expectation too much… tak suka la….

When school hols end, mcm biase, I know I cant sleep early , and what will I do is, I hav to make some hot milk… dah tau sgt dah…..

And the most is, my holiday was awesome like fuck.

And thanx to Syasya and sis for cheeeer ing up my day… nyanyi-nyanyi at Red Box.. giler B**I best. We sang poker face song for thousand times! Hahahhahhah.. even otw back sya cant stop with her p-p-p-p-poker face phrase.. coz that’s the only part she can sing better… hhhahaha..





Not to forget my vacation with ma family! Ouh~ it was so cool! I was ttotally enjoy every moment there…. :D

more piccas will upload to my facebook if I got free time! there were lots of things I did on my hols... but it will be too crowded if I wrote everything here! so, till then, tata!

cheerio~~

-fieyra zach-

Bitch and Monkey

syasya- "wei, kau x marah dia ker?"
me- " yup! memang aku marah! and who doesn't I ask u?!"

tertekan betul with this one bitch that i wont mention her name here. this is the third time she did the same thing! all the assignments I did with syasya. and what did she do?! ouh ya~ I forgot, one thing that she will do, paste her name infront of our assignment dgn bangga nyer besar2... with an innocent look, "Cikgu, I'm in a same group with them" WTF?!


syasya- " asal kau baik sgt? marah je la!"
me- "sbb aku baik la aku x marah!!! "
and why I'm so baik? maybe this time syasya is right! i should scold her. maybe once or twice!





and guess what? today there was a cuuttEE monkey at the baby garden in my house... he looks so adorable! ouh~ i just feel that I wanna keep him! and i know mama will ketuk my kepala then! luckily there was no banana in my house, if i do, surely i giv it to him... :D

I just grabed my phone and snapped! he was about to run away! ouh~ dont scared! I wont eat you! I promise!! *wink*

-Fieyra zach-

BeeBee, you tagged me!

Tagged by my dear BeeBee a.k.a Belle (thanx!)

1. Who are you? I am What I am

2. Are we friends? Yup we are.. :)

3. When and how did we meet? At school in 1999 when we were standard 1

4. Did you like me at all? YesssSS! absolutely

5. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. kawaii (cz u're kawaii!)

6. Describe me in one word. s.w.e.e.t

7. What was your first impression? adorable

8. Do you still think that way about me now? yup, and now u're still adorable la..

9. What reminds you of me. Amy chong! hahahahhahahah!!! * dun get pissed ar!*

10. If you could give me anything what would it be? errm~~ wat ya? a huge teddy bear maybe?

11. How well do you know me? wat you say? ngee~

12. When's the last time you saw me? Form 3 (2007) woa~ it been a long2x time. hahahaha

13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? yess...

14. Are you going to post this in your notes and see what I say about you? yup.. will you?

15. What is my best attribute? Caring

Tagged,
I
Tag
Those
Who
Are
Wanted
To
Do
So

Teacher's day

This is the present that I bought for teacher’s day yesterday


Idk what should I buy actually.. at nite, I asked my bro to go to 7E to buy me tis.. like mama said, "dah malam baru nak beli.." I ain’t lazy, cuma kurang rajin jer nak beli… huhuhu… ok, la the celebration yesterday.. but the most is, I and Ain were the emcees.. luckily Kristina said it was a formal type of event.. if not, mati la!

And today is the first day of school breaks! Too much of to-do-plans on my mind… even tis morning, I woke at 11.45 am.. woa~ buruk btol perangai bgun lambat.. hahahah!

Tomorrow;
1. Wake up
2. Yawning
3. Rolling on bed
4. Waiting for few minutes
5. Pensive
6. Repeat step 1 until 5 again
7. Doing stupid stuff


Wahh~ what a plan kan?

happy teacher's day to all,
fieyra zach

Barca ouh Barca!

Yesterday I went to watch movie with sis at KLCC... like usual, after i went back frm there, i cried... dont ask me why, ask youself!! my sis said, ‘is tis kinda curse?’ ya it sounds weird. But its true! Urgh~ I watched Night at The museum 2 (Battle of The Smithsonian) movie.. it was recommended by my bro...NaTM2 is much more btter than first one.. the 1 is sooO hell boring.. even papa said the same thing...he’s so ANTI with that movie!

Anyhoo, today at school was so damn cool! Everybody were like enjoying themselves so much.. this is the result after being under stress 4 almost 4 weeks kot? Especilly when our class is fulled with balloons! (blame swee teng for it) i cant stop laughing look at em’ pumped the balloon using that pump.. it was so like.. wao! Doin some shit sex! Waahahahha! Hermini was so excited doin it.. It seems like dah habis SPM jer sume.. tho i was so enjoy look at them, but i was so sleepy coz i got no enuff sleep yesterday because I WATCHED BARCELONA KICKED MU’s ASS!!!!!
Wuhuu~~ glory glory Barca!! It was so worth to stay awake to watch the match!

And now I Wonder why im laughing when I WOKE UP IN THE MORNING AND got some holy reason to LAUGH AT..SOME TEAM THAT WENT ALL THE WAY TO THE FINAL TO LOSE...AS IF GETTING BEATEN 4-1 AT HOME WASNT ENOUGH...LOL uh~ MU what a shame! One word to say: BoooOO!

p/s MU, MU, such pathetic!

laughing my ass off!
-fieyra zach-

No More Spinning

Ouh, Im so relieve! Now I can breathe like usual back after for almost 3 weeks wedged in exam weeks! Ouh my head was ttotally spinning… I jus got one week rest for Intervention II exam and continued with Diagnostic exam! Giler ke Jabatan ni? They think we all are robot is it?

The most is, I cant wait for school hols! Yeah~ you know that im dying for some rest…

so u just have to wait, what i gotta do with u, Mr. Holiday!!

iloveholidays!
-fieyra zach-

Happy Sweet 17, Fieyra!!

18 may 2009

Time flies real fast.. I cant believe that I'm 17 now! dah tua dah... Sometimes I cant wait to be an adult
and sometimes I wanna be forever young.. WuhuuU~

and I did celebrate my 17th birthday with my family. they never missed to celebrate my birthday each year.. i love them hell much!

And here I would like to xpress my appreciation to my classmates. they remembered my birthday and even sang a Birthday song just before we started our Biology exam.. *blushed*

You Girls Rawk la!!

Nothing much I wish on my birthday..

the most is of course on my SPM...

and yeah, I wanna stay happily with my loves one!

Anyhoo, thanx to all who wishing and reminding me that

I'm getting older one more year...

thanx for all the presents too..

really appreciate it.. it doesnt matter whether its tiny, small or big, cheap or xpensive..

actually, the thought that counts kan? :)

most of all, I love the present given by my sis...

you know I love it so much!!!

*more pics on my facebook...*

speech fom lil' birthday gurl,

-fieyra zach-

stop it fieyra!

[♥] I've come to realise i think fatuously a lot lately!
i always ask myself "what if" about anything I do...
it annoyed me you know?!
fieyra, please la dont make yourself stuck in ur own silly mind!
penat dah!

haiz~~

-fieyra zach-

Especially dedicated to Qaiyum Kamarul

My eyes were like crystal when I had a chat with him yesterday.. who’s him? *good question* basically he is so much like my weird cousin. We hardly talk when we meet but we share our problem together whenever we’re in a hard time..
He’s my personal advisor, my mr. consultant, my cikgu grammar, my protector and the most is, he understands me well and the only person can calm me down.


And yet yesterday he told me that he will be flying to Sarawak on this 22nd of june to take up Pilot course. Qaiyum, as I told u before, I will cry… first of coz im happy for you…. I memang happy coz I tau you memang nak sgt jadi pilot since you were 4.. and I still remember the story bout your nenek teasing you when you said that you wanna be a pilot someday. And now, you’re almost one step towards ur dream.. see, best kan?


And the second reason why I cry is, you are just like another part of me.. its hard for me to xplain but I want you to know that, when something happen to me, I will think of you and I know I can count on you… ingat lagi last Monday when I was awaken by a nightmare, I woke up and cried. You were the first person in my thought. And how I wanna let myself ok by sending you an offline msg telling:-
“qaiyum, i termimpi sumthin n i trus terjaga n sembahyang hajat... i x tau la... i rase mcm sedeyh sgt.... i x mintak petunjuk pun mlm semalam,.... tp x tau nape mimpi mcm tu.... i takut i nangis n trus amik air semayang n sembahyang..... ”


When I think it back, it was just like yesterday when how u stopped me from being fren with Daniel, scolded Sheikh for me then I wrote chinese letter for you, and how you explained to me when I was misconception bout that P_ _ _ _ _ . ouh~ its were our kiddy memories.. bodoh je kan?

I know, its not like you’re gonna leave forever, but I just feel that ur absence of coz’ will make some difference..

•Who’s gonna calm me down when I cant control myself?
• Who’s gonna lend their ears when I had a problem?
•Who’s gonna be there everytime I need someone?
• Who am I gonna think about when I was awaken by nightmare in a middle of the night?
• Who am I gonna tell my sadness to?
• Who am I gonna share my pain with?
• Who am I gonna refer to when I was being stupid?
• Who’s gonna protect me when I’ve been played?
• Who’s gonna check my grammatical mistakes in my blog?
• Who’s gonna think wisely in decision for me?
• Who’s gonna choose for me when I cant make a choice?
•How am I gonna find someone who are not pretend and say what they want?
•Who am I gonna chat with till 5 in a morning?
*who are they if they aren’t you? *


No matter what it is, you know that I will always pray for you. Qaiyum, I tau u memang minat sgt nak jd pilot… of course la im happy for u.. you deserve the best in your life… I tau you x suka tgk nangis2 ni… I janji I jumpa u nanti I x nangis punya.. ok? ingat don’t under estimate urself, jgn slalu fikir bukan2…
Janji 3 perkara:-
1- Jangan jadik laki gatal yg miang
2- Belanja I nanti
3- Amar makruf nahi mungkar


im happy for you,
-fieyra zach-

Mahsuri

I went to Mahsuri theater dekat Istana Budaya with my sis and frens yesterday. …

and guess what???

I met my ex back! Before tis memang dah agak I will meet him coz I know dia pengarah tari utk previous theater that I went b4… haiz~ idk why I was so silly untuk tegur dia.. yakssS!
*idk where did I get tis weird spirit from???* idk why dalam byk2 hari pementasan theater tu, semalam jugak dia pilih utk datang…

He asked me, “datang dengan siapa? Sorang jer?”
Tercabar jer dengar… so neither you!!! Cakap org, I asked him back, “you sorang je? Tak Nampak pun kawan2?” but kudos me because I can act real good and pretend like im cool…. Hah?! Like I care!

Anyhoo, the theater is not so bad after all.. ok la… best jugak… :D

Hmmm,

-fieyra zach

Note for You!

♥ captionless....

note for you: I guess I miss u.. and you know that I always do.....
I know u've been away for 10 days, its enuff to give me this kinda feeling....

♥ you,

-fieyra zachariah-

3 In 1 Story

23rd April (Application day)- first of all, I would like to xpress my thankfulness to High School Setapak boys especially Hasrin for helping us on transferring our data to the organizer’s laptop… Gosh! We were the last team who submit out presentation slide on that hell day… mcm2 benda jadi…
• our computer got some trouble (cannot be opened)
• our second computer cannot detect sound
• organizer’s laptop can’t read our hyperlink and video
• we forgot 2 make a second copy for our story board
• the organizer was so ‘kerek’ with us
• teacher scolded me for using Hasrin pendrive.. *wtf?*
Anyhoo, I was so touched when Hasrin really help us on tat day.. tho he knew tat we were his competitor, he was so cool to help us! Thanx bro!


24th April (Presentation day)- it was held somewhere at Titiwangsa… and we were the first presenter… to be honest, I did real suck for my presentation… it’s not that im blaming teacher for asking me to use a microphone, but to be honest, I cant present using a mic especially when the mic itself got some problem… plus, I was shivering hearing my own voice using mic.…. hahahhaha And jus after we did our presentation, we came out from the hall and try to cool down ourselves in another room…. and I became more down when I heard others did a great presentation…. And we were struck looking at high school setapak’s presentation frm far.. gosh! It was so impressive! Like I said on my previous blog, dorang mmg bagus kan?? Tho, I was so bloody down, but thanx to Sook Yee coz u help me lots and cool me down time tuh… :)


25th April (Result day)- *sorry I was not there when they announced the winner at 1 pm c0z I gotta dash to somewhere else* and I received a msges frm Ain and Amy telling me that we got 3rd place!!!!! I was like #$%^@!% sumpah tak percaya!!!! OMG, dah la time buat presentation macam tayik…. Maybe tis time I percaye sook yee said that I ain’t that bad when I presented that day…… hahahhaha!!! And congrats to the first and second school from SMK segambut Jaya, and Hartamas! For high school setapak, still congrats and tho u guys didn’t win, but I still feel tat u did a great job.... its k, Ain kata, belanja u guys after tis.. hahaha *zipped lips*

tis is what happen masa ePPDa utk peringkat negeri! thanx to all!



it was so unexpected,
-fieyra zach

He's Just Not That Into You

I watch tis movie last friday..

what can I say??? i love it..♥ I almost cried when i watch tis movie!

the story is all bout women who are stuck in a love matters... the story is so true!

I highly recommend all gurls out there to watch tis movie!
**trust me!

love,

-fieyra zach-

Well Done, Fieyra!!!

11 April 2009: Unbelievable! yeah totally! i never thought that i could make it!

yeah! i did it at last!

macam x percaya when they announced that APGS once again juara for e-PPDa tis year!!

that time bila dengar je, fuh~ I cant believe that im screaming!

*fieyra out of countrol that hell time*

honestly speaking, high skuwl setapak had an awesome presentation.. especially their leader, Hasrin.. when he opens his mouth, everybody was like, *jaw drops*

theres no word to describe how happy i am... all the pain and hardwork have been paid! thanx to all!

wish me luck for the next round in a state level!

We're the winner! (fieyra, Amy & Ain)

with high skuwl boys

(Hasrin, Ammar, Amin, Amy, Ain & Fieyra)

kau hebatlah fieyra!,

-fieyra zach-

Stress that Kills me..

OMG! These 2 days were a rough day for me… idk why my head was like hell spinning…
I was totally under-stress and worsen when me and sis were fighting jus 4 a stupid silly thingy thing…

I cant stop thinking bout my studies and ‘him’.. I keep on saying to myself that I cant cope with this any longer… and it became worse when I started to think that I wanted to stop.. ouh gosh! Why I was so emo??? Maybe I miss him so much and he was so busy when the time that I really need him in my arms… now I know that’s why my brain clogged and I cant think wisely… It seems like I lost in my own world… I cant seem to find a way back to myself…

And luckily yesterday my cousin sasha calling me sumwhere 10 pm asking me to have a drink together with Aikal and my sis…. Ouh~ she really saves my day.. at least she can chill me up… what can I say, I love my cousin soooOO much.. she like my twins who understands me… and some kinda know when the time I need her… And I felt sorry to my sis 4 wat had happen… I cant deny that imma’ emo type of person.. yeah~ its true… what to do? I was born to be like that..

And I feel like wanna shout cry and scream loudly so that anyone could know that how bleeding I am… I jus don’t know why my fren all are like~ (you know what I mean don’t you?) FRIEND CAN BE SUCH AN EVIL! Why is it so hard to find someone that really sincere? That always be there 4 u? why is it so hard? Urgh~

“I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately

All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind

I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do

Or who I'm supposed to be

I don't want to be anything other than me

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn

I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn

I'm surrounded by a identity crisis everywhere I turn

Am I the only one to notice?

I can't be the only one concerned”
I don't wanna be, Gavin DeGraw

p/s And I feel glad, happy and relieve when I know that my bro, Shizzo now is recover frm his ‘illness’…. Im Happy 4 ya! Yeah! Now I got my old abang back!!! *wink*

stress lil' girl,

-fieyra zach-

Look! me in Uniform!

Tagged by beebee/babysiiaozz (thanx beebee)

1. Take a recent picture of yourself or take a picture right now.
2. Don't change your clothes, just take a picture.
3. Post the picture without edits.
4. Post the picture with these instructions.

at syasya's house! gagagagaga!

1. Cool or Lame? lame!!!

2. What do you like the most about the person who tagged you? i love her so much! she's a great fren eva!

3. Are you looking for a boyfriend/ girlfriend? not anymore afta i met him ♥ :D

4. Do you think you have enough confidence? sometimes i do

5. What are you wearing now? my skuwl unifrorm. da~

6. What would you name your kids in the future? will discuss with my husband later.. hahhahaa

7. What is your goal for this year (2009)? nothing other than SPM

8. Do you think you are cute? what say u? nggee~

9. What are your favorite colours? white!!

10. Do you ever wonder where you would end up after you die?Heaven or hell? heaven! who wants to be in hell?

11. What are your bad habits? idk... i love to waste my time doin stupid things

12. what is ur biggest secret? why shud i tell u btw??! hah!

13. what d0 ur parents think 0f u? idk.. but i know they really love me!

14.What does flying mean to you? free

15. h0w w0uld u describe urself? indescribable!

16. What do you mean if you were to fall in love? i fell for someone tat i love

17. Are you talented? not really...

18. How tall are you? i dont consider myself tall.......

19. Do you believe in fate? yes totally

20. What do you feel today? i dont know.. but i feel somethin strange and something strong.. idk.. I guess i oredy got the answer that ily so much..



Instructions :
-Remove one question from above and add in your personal question.
-Make a total of 20 questions and tag 5 people-Remember to notify them that they've been tagged
-List them out at the end of the post.

♥,
-fieyra zach-

The Ten :)

thanx Fini 4 tagging me in this survey.... so here we go!

Randoms :

1 are you lonely? –I don’t think so

2 are you happy?- kinda :D

3 are you sad?- not really…

4 are you Indonesian?- nope im not okieyh?

5 are you expensive?- in term of wot? *lmao*

6 are you blonde?- nah….

7 are you Irish?- only in my myspace profile! Ceh~

*fini, where’s no.8 question???

9 are you desperate?- hahhaha… weirdo Q!

10 are you male or female?- Im female.. da~

Ten facts :

1 name: Fieyra zachariah

2 birthplace: HKL

3 real hair color: originally black

4 Ethnicity: Asian

5 Talent: too much too describe… wuuhuUU~

6 birthday: 18th may :)

7 mood: imissyousomuch

8 favorite color: white

9 where do you live: klang valley, kl, Malaysia

10 left or right handed: righty

Ten things about your love life :

1 do you love someone?- yes I do! :D

2 do you believe in love at first sight?- errm~ depends…

3 who ended your last relationship?- more to myself

4 have you ever hurt anyone emotionally?- I don’t think so…

5 have you ever broken someone's heart?- pernah kot…

6 longest relationship?- 1 and ½ year

7 have you ever liked someone but never told them?- can’t remember.. have i?

8 are you afraid of commitment?- nope.. 4 wot?

9 have you hugged someone within the last week?- yess, him.. *smooches*

10 have you ever had a "secret" admirer?- not secret anymore…

Ten this or that :

1 love or lust :- love needs lust and lust needs love! That’s it!

2 accent or no accent:- accent

3 cats or dogs:- I love dogs more than cat.. too bad~

4 a few best friends or many regular friends:- a few best friends!

5 myspace or friendster:- myspace… hate friendster

6 pepsi or coke:- vanilla coke

7 wild night out or romantic night?:- romantic nite hahahahha..

8 money or happiness:- everybody needs both..

9 night or day:- night :)

10 IM or msn :- YM! :D

Ten have you evers :

1 been caught sneaking out? - nope

2 been cought making out with your gf/bf – hahahha..nah…

3 done something you regret? – unfortunately yess

4 bungee jumped? – will do someday!

5 lied to someone you loved? – ya..

6 finished an entire jawbreaker? – yes sir!

7 looked through a significant other's phone, email, myspace, etc because you thought they were cheating on you?- yesss… I have to admit that I can’t say NO to my couriosity. hahahhah

9 cried because you lost a pet? – yesss….

10 wanted to disappear? – sometimes…



Ten preferences :

1 light hair or dark hair: dark

2 hugs or kisses: need both hahahah..

3 shorter or taller: taller!!

4 intelligence or attraction: attraction! Hahah! XD

5 Jeans or shorts: shorts :D

6 English or math: I don’t mind! I love both

7 hook-up or relationship: relationship O.o

8 do you want a girlfriend/boyfriend: :D ♥

9 sun or moon: sun!

10 day or night: night



Now tag Ten of your friends :)
-fini
- wai bee
- qaiyum
- sook yee
- shiha
-izzy
-AG
- shafixX
-nad

Qaiyum, I love ur new Handphone

"qaiyum! i love ur new handphone!"

he jus bought his new handphone Sony Ericsson Xperia X1(SEX1) and i love it so much...
gosh! its been forever since i changed my phone... and my one is kinda ugly.. ouh no~
like he said, "ala... keje nnti beli la"
ceh~ yer la tu kan
ape2 je la.. hope u happy with ur baby (SEX1)

im so jealous, hahhaa
-fieyra zachariah-

My first blood test!

my blood test result!

today is 1st of April da~ APRIL FOOL!

yaksS i dh kene tis morning with Kanne who pranked me *shes the first person* ! ouh~

lots of people pranked me today.. i dunno why im such a blur la.... percayer je bile kene tipu...

anyhoo, i made my blood test today... im the only person in class who did it cz i didnt attend my Biology class on last Tuesday... and my blood result is group A!!

same blood result with mama, A! so im mama's daughter!! yeay! i never know my blood group before this and yet today is my first day on my first of April i did my blood test! :)

happy April fool guys,

-fieyra zach-

c o u s i n

omg! look at our nose!

she's my coolest cousin eva!

-fieyra zach-

Shizzo's Birthday!

Date: March 26

Location: Restaurant somewhere in KL

Event: Shizzo's 19th Birthday (my bro)

Photographer: Me, Fieyra

these are only a few piccas tat i upload... lazy to upload all cz tat time we were bz eating drpd amik gmbar.. heheheh...
happy to know tat my bro now are getting older.... jus so u know that i love u soooO much... i know i been so annoying toward u.. i know that.. i always make u mengamuk, marah, sakit hati, menyusah kan, hari2 gaduh etc etc.... but deep inside, i heart u.... u're the bestest abang! *cheh~ bodek nih!*
and im the worst adik.... waaAA~



happy birthday shizzo!
-fieyra zach-

Stuff in my Bedroom

here i would like to introduce u guys a lil' bit random stuff bout my room.. hahahaha



Condoms:
OMG, no! lol

Cell phone:
i put everywhere

Book shelf:
yups

Couch:
nope

Futon:
nah..

Computer/laptop:
both

Pictures:
too many

Mirror:
its a compulsory... XD

Skateboard:
no.

Bed:
da?~ :D

Clothes on the floor:
sometimes...

Surfboard:
nope
Smoke detector:
no.

Piano/keyboard/Guitar/bass/drums:
keyboard

Locking door:
always.. :D

Bottle of water:
yess

Blacklight:
nah...

Lava Lamp:
used to till one day i broke it

Medals/ribbons:
ribbons

CDs:
a lots.. i love all my CDs.

Flag:
for wot?? hahhaha

Stop sign/any sign:
above my door, yes...

Paintball gun:
at my bro's room.. not mine..

Real Gun:
hell no!
Cigarettes:
nope

Pot:
nah..

Any drugs:
its illegal to bring into my room lol

Alcohol:
hell no..

Books:
ouh~ its uncountable

ps3:
nah... i didnt put it in my room...

Xbox:
tak de xbox

Gamecube:
nope

Stereo:
yes

Gum:
ya

How many windows do you have in ur room:
three rows

What is the color of your walls?
white+ peach.

Do you get ready for the day in your room or the bathroom?
hah? neither both.. hahah..

What's on your walls?
posters, pictures, schedule, many things la i paste on my wall

Has the opposite sex been in your room before?
ya, papa and my bros...

Has the opposite sex been on your bed?
my bro sometimes

Has the opposite sex slept in your bed?
nope

Ever had sex in your bed?
wtf??? big NO-NO hahahahhaha... :D

Who usually sleeps in your bed other than you?
my sister and my teddy

Do you like your bedroom:
errmmm~ ya!!




i sleep in my own room,
-fieyra zach-

I still remember your birthday

here i'd like to wish happy birthday to hazarul danial..
yeah, today is ur' day...
i hope you'll keep smiling through out tis year!
jus so you know that u deserve nothing but the best!

Dan!! you're getting older!
-fieyra zach-

Finally

Eventually,

he said

those

3 words!!!

i'm touched... OMG! i just cant describe it!

u make me fly!! it feels like im in a cloud nine!!

thing that makes me smile,

-fieyra zach-

I'm so addicted to Pet Society!

my pet, Pooky Smooky!

I jus started play Pet Society in facebook after I’ve been invited by a few people such as my sis, Fini, Wai Bee, Qaiyum and so many people lagi lah…

At first, I thought it was a silly kiddy game.. but once I created my own pet…… I wass sooO addicted to it… can you believe, I spend my time on my first day started play tat game frm 12am till 5 am.. and it was so much fun when me and Qaiyum played together on tha day coz both of us created our pet on the same day… hahahaha..

My pet is so cute you know?? Hahahha.. I named it as Pooky Smooky….

*thanx to nadiah ramli for link me to ur bloggy!* ( I jus realized..) ^.^

i love my pet, pooky smooky!

-fieyra zach-

Caught In This Madness, Too Blind to See

I jus dunno what way should I take for my next step… im getting bored of this relationship…
I tried to be faultless in every single way..

I can’t stand it any longer when you keep on hanging me by thread…
I jus wanna know the truth… sometimes im kinda confused in my own feeling..
There must be something in you which I cant describe why.. why I have fallen for you… errmm~ hard to describe..

Wish u knew… but I know u wouldn’t..

"Sounds straight from the twilight
Has me up all night And I cant fall asleep
Coz’ I keep thinkin’ of you
And I saw a shadow outside my window
And it’s you…

All my sorrows flew away
Hush! Keep quiet hear me say
I don’t ever want you to go
Please stay….
with the moonlight dancing free
And there’s no one but you and me
There’s no reason to go astray
Please stay…

Making up a story
It’s the way you’re looking at me
If you think that this is funny
It’s just you….
Try and think about it
If your heart is closed don’t lock it
Keep your keys back in your pocket
Think this through… "

I miss you more than yesterday, and you know that,
-fieyra Zachariah-

Now she's gone

on my way going to Malacca.. so boring...

i just went back frm malacca for my great grandmother funeral.. im so tired...

i received a phone call when i was in a class around 10a.m from mama telling me tat nenek in malacca had passed away and ask me to go back before 12pm...



its been forever since i attended any funeral.. if im not mistaken, the last one when i was 4 when my beloved nenek passed away.... wateva it is i hope nenek will rest in peace. Amiin..

Al-Fatihah..

-fieyra zach-